Apologies wrapped around
a million-times, yet
nothing could prepare me
for this negative hole
for all my thoughts
have only caused tragedy
depression & pain
I don't want to cause it
I don't want to hurt you

And I shall silence my voice
I'll never speak again
if it allows for you not
to feel this jagged-edge;
I didn't realize the power of word
I didn't realize the effect of its reality
I'll send my regrets a thousand-fold
but never realize the blunt reality
of my depression of which I
could not handle to bring others
down with.

I shall silence my voice
I'll disappear from your lives
I'll make sure never to show
this twisted spite of my name
this shallow hole of my ideas.

Forget my name. Forget my body.
Forget my ideals sketched here.
I am not worth your depression.
I am not worth a single tear.
I shall slit my voice in a attempt
to silence the fool whom
never realized his enviroment.

I shall silence my thoughts
if doing so means you are safe
from the temptations of pessimism.

I promise never to speak again
in the form of poetry & stanza
because in doing so, I'll silence
a demon of words spawned
only from self.

I shall disappear
in the persona
of me & myself.